Scared

Woke up to pee this morning at 5am like every other night/morning. I wasn't thinking anything was different till I looked at the TP and it was red and the toilet was pink. I of course freaked out and started crying. I was yelling "no I don't wanna lose our baby". No one could hear me unless it was loud enough for the neighbors to hear because G is at work. I did and didn't wanna call her. I needed her but didn't wanna make her upset at work. Well I was selfish and called but it did make me feel better. Now I wait for her to get home and the doctors office to open so we can check on our baby. I am really worried about him or her. I was on the couch all day yesterday. I wanted to clean but I had a headache which wouldn't go away. I am very thankful for this because I'd be blaming myself right now if I had been up doing a lot. I will update you guys as soon as I can.