Ultrasound 5w5d

Here is our baby....only one baby but I am happy with that. I think G might be disappointed because she really wanted twins.

Our 3rd beta was 6233 which if I figured it out right is doubling every two days which is good news. We didn't see anything but the sac but I'm told it's still early and my ovaries were still huge which made it hard to see in my uterus. My belly continues to go down everyday so not as much fluid in my abdomen but I still have to have the lovenox shots for another week. We are hoping to see a heartbeat at the next ultrasound in a week.

I have a horrible cold right now and of course there is basically nothing I can take that helps. So I'm home on the couch suffering. If you know of anything that will help with my stuffy nose let me know please!

So far so good

Well I got some catching up to do!!  I am sorry!  I did go for blood work and my HCG was 178 on 10dp5dt so it doubled in 48 hours!!  No more blood work since then so I am hoping it is still going up.  I still haven't broke down and POAS again.  After I got the BFN the morning of my blood test I fear seeing another one, but I want to finally see a BFP on a HPT so I am torn.  I would like to have a picture of one for a scrap book of all the fertility stuff, but what if I am someone it doesn't show up in urine or something and I get another BFN and I panic that I am miscarrying?  This stuff still messes with your head even after you find out your pregnant!!! 

Anyways I am feeling sooo much better.  The fluid goes down every day.  I only have a small bump now which does get people asking if I am pregnant.  "Well yes but this is not baby yet its fluid" lol Here is a picture of G and I on Christmas and you can see my bump!  I'm in green!



 

 

Today I am 5w1d.  I feel like all I do is eat.  I am starving about every two hours, so I have definitely been eating a lot.  That is so unlike me.  Normally if I eat three times a day that was a lot.  I never had a big appetite and was forcing myself to eat while doing the stims trying to get those eggs good and healthy.  Well now there is no forcing.  I want food all the time.  I think if I could eat every minute I would! lol

 

The lovenox (blood thinner) shots are going well.  I think they are what has been helping with the fluid.  I started feeling better after starting the shots.  G is still good at giving them to me!!  I couldn't do it myself for sure.  I was concerned they would hurt the baby/babies, but I looked it up online and it looks like some people take it to prevent miscarriage and it seems safe so I hope it is!!  Anyone else had to do these shots?

 

I went back to work yesterday..... I had been off more then a week.  It was a good day to go back because of the snow I only had to work a half day and my office is closed today so I am starting off going back to work slow. We got about 8 inches of snow here in PA where we live.   I want these babies or baby to stay in there so I am trying my best to just relax as much as I can.  I will work tomorrow and Saturday then have off another 3 days.

 

New Years Eve we have an ultra sound scheduled.  I am assuming we will be able to see if there is 1 or 2 babies right?  G is hoping for two....I would really be happy with just 1.  Two scares me!! But I would be happy no matter what!  I can't wait!!  It can't come soon enough!

I hope everyone had a Merry Christmas!! 

Home

So I think I forgot to mention that the doctor did not want me to go back to work for awhile.  I am stuck at home!!  Since I only feel good in a reclining position its nice to be home, but its boring!!  G just started working 13 hour shifts so it seems even longer.  Yesterday I spent most of the day on the couch.  I got up to shower and go to the grocery store both of which tired me out a lot.  Having about 5 lbs of fluid in your belly doesn't make things fun.  It pushes on everything and it hurts!!

I can do my blood work today or tomorrow so I think I will try to go first thing tomorrow morning.  I still don't really feel like doing much.  OHSS is NOT fun!!  Plus my doctors office closes at noon today so by the time the lab sends them the results I am sure I wouldn't hear till tomorrow anyways. 

My new shots are going ok, but hurt and are bruising my belly.  They are blood thinners.  I guess my estrogen level is 5000 so that means possible blood clots.  I guess it is good for many reasons I went to the doctor on Tuesday.  They didn't drain me like I had hoped, but I got my great news a day early and got the blood thinners so that I don't get clots.  I am pretty sure blood clots would be bad!!

So now I wait for the next HCG level tomorrow.  I hope its still going up.  I am a little concerned because the past two mornings I was puking, but I didn't today.  I REALLY hope that doesn't mean my levels are going down!  I hope it means it was the OHSS making me sick!

Well if you need me you will be able to find me on my couch for awhile!  I am not sure when I can go back to work.  My note says "until further notice"

Results are in

We are PREGNANT....I couldn't believe it.  I asked her many times if she was serious lol HCG is 81 and progesterone is >40.  But I do need to have those shots every day!!  Ugh back to shots again!  Anyways my day got sooooo much better.  And I learned not to POAS because they lie!!  Now I am off to relax like I am suppose to!

8dp5dt

I have continued to grow and not taller!!  My belly is huge and my belly button is now swollen shut!!  Yesterday was the worst!  I was so uncomfortable and felt sick.  I have been having very bad heart burn that only goes away if I eat something.  It even wakes me up in the middle of the night. 

I did not make it through work yesterday I had to leave early.  I was so uncomfortable.  I couldn't wait to come home and put my feet up.  I have to sit in a reclining position to feel better.  G and I decided last night that I needed to go to the doctor.  The fluid was everywhere in my abdomen and I was having pain in my chest and shortness of breath.  Also we had decided to POAS in the AM. 

Well I had to get up to use the bathroom at midnight because my belly hurt bad so when I woke up at 4 and tried to POAS I couldn't get much out and it read "not pregnant"  I tried to tell myself it was because I hadn't peed enough, but deep down I thought for sure I wasn't pregnant.  I was just putting on a brave face for G.  I didn't want her upset for work.  Right before she left for work I started puking...ugh!!  She held my hair and got me a cool wash cloth, but she still had to leave for work...I was upset and called my mom to go with me to the doctor because if G couldn't make me feel better then of course my mom could right??  lol

The doctor found I have huge ovaries and fluid in my abdomen.  Which I knew...duh!!  Anyways he wasn't able to drain it because the fluid was everywhere, but not in big pockets anywhere so he wouldn't have been able to get enough to make a difference I guess....ugh I was really hoping for some relief!!  It is very painful.

They also talked to me about another shot in my belly!! ugh I thought they were over!!  Depending on my blood work (yes they did a beta too) I might need blood thinner shots.  They claimed it was unlikely, but gave me a script just in case.  They would call me in a few hours with all my results and let me know!!  More waiting.....

4dp5dt

I am feeling better, but I am getting a lot bigger!  Most of the pain in my belly went away, but now it just keeps getting bigger.  So I guess I am very bloated.  It is only uncomfortable when my pants don't fit...which would be my work pants!!  We think I have been looking about 3-4 months pregnant the past two days.  I haven't had a huge weight gain maybe 1 or 2 lbs. 

I still have a terrible time sleeping at night.  I sleep fine till about 12-2AM then my lower back hurts so bad I toss and turn.  If I basically sit all the way up...up on like 3-4 pillows with my knees to my chest I can get back to sleep for a short time.  Then about 4 I am wide awake waiting for G's alarm to go off.  Before this week I never got up with her, but since transfer I have been up every day with her.  I am also starving so then I eat my first breakfast....I don't know if that's abnormal because I am normally not up that early so maybe I just get hungry because I am awake.

So are these pregnancy symptoms, OHSS symptoms, both, all in my head, or from my meds????.....your guess is as good as mine!! 

I would love to POAS but G said I can't till Tuesday.  I am not really stressed about it so it is probably best if I don't because then I am sure I will start stressing one way or the other!!  If its a BFN I will worry it will never be a BFP and if its a BFP I will worry it won't stay that way.  In the tww you just can't win!!  So for now I am still pregnant with twins till proven otherwise!!

OHSS

So I think I do have OHSS =(  I can't sleep at night because my back hurts so bad and my belly hurts so bad when I pee.  Also today I am just so uncomfortable.  I am getting so tired!  All I wanna do is sleep, but it doesn't happen.  Tonight I might try to sleep sitting up.  I haven't gained weight and my belly isn't huge so I don't think I need to go to the doctor.  I just have to wait and hope it gets better!

When I called the nurse to ask about OHSS I also asked about our other embryos.  She was looking up my file then she suddenly says "Wow there are 22 frozen so you had 24 since you transferred 2 and only 4 were discarded"  I said "yea now you understand why I don't feel good?" lol

I have no idea what we are going to do with 22 babies.  We definitely don't need that many.  I will look into donating the embryos before our free year of storage is up.  It will cost a lot to store them all so we won't be able to store them all past a year. 

I am going to try to relax and get some sleep!